whoa... i almost totally forgot i was going to start doing this. <_<

what is this called? blogging?

... am i doing it right im not sure. Dx

well i have started writing fanfics once again. i hope regularly too <_<

im still trying to figure out computer stuffs. and trying not to trip over life.

>w<

to keep this balance between rping and. fanfic writing.

im visiting colleges here hope to start my own life on American ground >:3

growing up, im getting taller! just a bit though...

>:3

yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

for all nine plus months that I was gone and never talked or updated and i jus wanna give my excuse as to why....

i lost my stuff. Dx

but i just got it all back and i wanna say.... sorry. for not saying anything or updating, or keeping in contact but i was just so busy and i actually just transferred art schools to where i got more time doing what i like which is writing so i am so happy about this. to all my fans out thar.

well yes i am in a new school right now, and i have much more time to just write. i wanna keep in better contact with everyone so expect at LEAST weekly blogs. im going to force myself to do that, here on my LJ. uhg its been so long, ppl asking about fanfics if im going to continue them and hoestly when i read back... im embarrassed... because i just, sux so hard Dx.

i can barely manage reading through because its all so baaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. i swear i have like, seizures whenever i read over my old work. like, mental sex, i think the deep emotion made up for that, i havn't even gotten to oh boy kill yet and honestly im scared. Dx

what terrible writing will i find there? simple grammatical errors? perhaps confusing repentance structure? or maybe just some terrible word choice! maybe even lame ideas!!!! DX

sorry sorry but i said i sux at writing back then and i have to agree with myself. someone should of slapped me while writing back then. yet despite all my classes i have been taking up till now.... i feel, i havnt grown much in my writing. i mean GAP i guess is one of my best works though that is just terrible as well. i think is cause i rush through things as well as this stupid language barrier. DX

even after 7 years of being in america you would think that i would have english down. but its so unnecessarily confusing.

well... im back, sorry for not writing. i shall try contacting everyone again and talking to everyone again. :3

lurve u all~

kittypon.

well, kk so i was just told recently, like bout 15 minutes ago recently.... it would seem that someone likes my story ideas a bit too much... as in they are taking my stories and like, fixing them and posting them on their own.... now. that, is not cool. i dont know if to be angry or like, excited someone is taking my ideas and stuff. i mean, really its so hard to be origonal these days cause its almost like ALL the good ideas are taken D<

and i understand, taking something and making it your own but taking a story and just changing the names of the characters is just a... no...  especially posting it up as ur own. THAT is just far from cool to me. i mean cause like, art, is yours, but its never going to really be all yours in the end. this is something i have learned in art school. you will never become a REAL artist if you cant take the fact that ppl ARE going to take your work and make it into their own. its how ppl learn. like, doing a miyavi style on your guitar. its fine to watch something, absorb it, then take it home and try to copy it, then slowly build it into something new of your own. its how we learn. copying, and... not, turning it into something of ur own, as in breaking it down, examining it, then rebuilding it up into ur own art is not being an artist at all. it is, quite low of you.

well the thing i wanted to say is that yes, it happened, no im not telling the name of who, but it was in deviant art. im just asking all you out there to watch out for me cause, i only have so much time and two eyes. xD

it would be cool if like, i had 30 comps and over 100 eyes but yea. with ur help we can stop ppl from stealing real art. it would be a real help to me, and others if u could just report to me if u see anyone stealing. ill kindly ask them to remove what was put and go on my merry way. hey it happens, i would avoid it if i were u cause stealing is just.... yea, wont even go there.

loves ya all btw :3

Title: Crevasse
chapter: prolouge
Author: kitty_pon
Pairings: Kai/Reita & more
Rating: PG 13
Warnings: unbeta-ed
Synopsis: "But how low is this? Is it the bottom? Is this why its taking so long to fill the place up with cement?"
Comments: so! I know I really shouldn’t but…. I HAD THIS AWESOME DREAM LAST NIGHT RIGHT! It was a Jrock dream so I HAD to write it down because Jrock dreams are REALLY REALLY rare for me! >w< so yes, enjoy :3

 

Title: LIFE_KCABBACK
chapter: prolouge
Author: kitty_pon
Pairings: Uruha/???
Rating: PG 13
Warnings: unbeta-ed
Synopsis: "Well as you know the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem."
Comments: so its bee forever. u may throw rubber bath toys at kittypon Dx i did this today, trying to get my foot back into the writing. i hope u all can forgive me. oH BoY k!LL.... IS NOT DEAD! D< so dont worry :3 no lets see if i remember how to do this. (needs to contact manager D; )

so like... in middle school this boy walks up to me out of the blue saying 'hey! aren't u that one finalfantasy fan?' i, am completely taken off guard but answer cooly, though i had to admit, that even now i remember feeling something like a nerdy spirit lifting inside me wanting to just spout all my FF knowledge and scare the guy off with OVERPOWERLY KNOWLEDGE OF ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IMPORTANT!!!

intyways... i tell him, in a cool and collected manner (with a slick back of the hair for emphasis) 'yea' and he shrugs it off while nodding and going 'cool, cool' before giving a nod and glancing off to his left... then his eyes slowly trailed back to me and he opened his mouth to say 'well, i got this FF game, and was wondering if you wanted it' or something like that, all i remember is words comming from his mouth that somehow managed to get me the FF VII game in my posesion... well, inty ways he said SOMETHING and i completely blew my cover of controled manly coolness and i nearly rapped the guy for the game...

i actually i dont remember now if i scared the game into my posession or i threatened or something... all i know, is about 2 months later (yes two months that bastard had the nerve to f'ing stall!!! D< ) i found myself gripping onto a used finalfantasy VII game... the hard game to get. no, it wasn't black labled, though i wish it were (because if it were, i just might not be posting this damn blog now...) well, i get home, lock myself into my room, and play... and play.. and play, and yes... well, inty ways... the worse of worse things happened... while i was playing, my mind completely in the zone after getting past some frusterating stages and being absorbed in the old graphics that didn't seem to take away from the game at all... while saving Aeris, or Arith whoever u choose to read her god damned name is up to u... but after running up about 40 flights of virtual stairs, and running out of virtual breath to the point i actually was wiping my brow from i guess what u could say virtual prosperation... the damn game, had the nerve, to glitch on me.... why?

intyways, (i felt a rant comming on...) i was helplessly stuck... the game was in alright condition, there was nothing wrong with my system, it still works for all my other games just fine, my tv works... it was just the fucking game... on the first fucking disc not 3 hours into the damn game... now... i waited... about 4 years until a shine of light finally showed itself to me for ever playing that game again. though my dreams were crushed... i recovered, and moved on with my life, until that damn light... (it was some rundown shop)

well... they repaired games, and last week, on i think a saterday (could have been sunday) i made my way down to that shop to repair my game... though, i didn't play it right away.. (DAMN U FINALS! DAMN U TO HECK! D<) i had to wait, till saturday... this saturday (it is saturday right?) no, ur right...

its sunday.

my mistake. INTYWAYS! today, this sunday, i played that game again, with new vigor(sp) and was excited again like those three years ago, actually thinking i made some type of... shift, some change in that game. well, i get to that same part, stupdi Aeris(th) went and got kidnapped. sector 7 plate fell and killed all those ppl... i was in the shinra building running up those stairs... and that same glitch three years ago came and totally body blowed me back! it was like a slap to the face i swear! D<

intyways, i guess what im trying to say is, the damn game is still broken, and it looks like i will never be able to play the origonal FF VII game D;

this is worse than torchure, having the damn three disk set game, getting only about 3 hours into the first disk and it ends up glitching on me... couldn't wait till the third? where is my nintindo angel when i need him? ah, oh well, i honestly though i was going to be angier but honestly... im cool with it. guess i got what i paid for (absolutly NOTHING cept for the two dollars to repair the damn thing) but that doesn't mean the other disk dont work... just this one part, in the first disk... ah... i have no more to say, cept this blog SUX DX

sorry about that. KP apologizes >.<

dont worry my FF VII. i shall play and complete u one day. this is just a minor set back... a minor set back that just might last another 4 years... but thats not the point, i shall take it day by day and oh fuck forget it im pissed D<

er... hello. *looks around*
i guess i should introduce myself. i am kittypon (KP) and, while some of u just may know me, some of u dont. and, you are taking a new fresh step in trying to learn something new. something different maybe? then do not fear, for u r not alone, for this is KP's first attempt at blogging... have i failed yet?

intyways, since i have never actually read a blog *shushushush* what i get is, that it's like some journal(?) well... then, i guess i shall lay my manly pride down 2 notches and give this a try... am i doing it wrong yet?

well... i guess, to start and to get into the roll of things... i will begin with a question. (doesanyonehaveanypeptobismole?imseriouslyhavinganmajorestomachacheatthemomentithinkimightcryifidonthurryupandthrowup) first question! would u like to read a poem that i worked hard on for all my aquaintences to be? well, for you and a way to introduce myself in another way :3 have i messed up yet?

For you my dear acquaintance to be...

Being so distant from each other
I must admit that this will be a bit of a challenge. But
I will still pour my heart into this to the very best
of my capabilities. So please listen. For it is not so deep
but just as deep as our knowledge of each other.
Not even skin deep at the moment but
with some time I bet we can pierce down to the arteries.
Sorry, sorry so far
I’m not getting my point across. How about if we try
just a bit harder then maybe we can learn
something new? Honestly, I’m slightly hesitant, but
that’s only because I don’t know the ground I’m about to
set my feet upon with this message. The first few times
I’ve tried I don’t think I would even grade my self a D,
it was so sad I seemed to fall through the ice
of all that unnecessary tension. So this time I will
distance myself in order to gain new ground,
try with my words and this paper. Is it working?
Are you understanding? If not I will try my hardest
to elaborate though at the same time be as friendly distant
as any acquaintance would. But are we even that?
I feel that I am on a certain level of understanding and
that you are still many stairs away, somewhere in between.
Please don’t get the wrong impression;
this is just an invitation for myself. The few times that we have
spoken I would wonder if when we walked away from each other
I had just missed some opportunity into your kitchen.
So to clear this all up, I know some time has passed
and though the air in the classroom might be stale
with recognition maybe we could spread our perfume
of new knowledge of each other? Then again I’m
just being selfish. I cannot seem to appreciate
the lucky round chocolates that I already have possession of
on a friendly basis. Each diverse and awesome in its
own little way. But can you really blame me for wanting more?
Even as I try to stuff them into my cheeks and keep count
they seem to melt through the gaps of my teeth and
instead of the sweet times together I am left with the bitter aftertaste
of past grudges and mistakes. I apologize for my mouth
is full of cavities, and my unattractive smile is enough
to throw you off, I know that, but please. Can we
play blind for just a few seconds? It’s not like I want to kiss you
with such a rotten mouth.

(imabouttoseriouslygetillinaminute...damnstressandfinalsweek)how was that? was it bad? im sorry! i wrote this before christmass, and for some odd reason it has reall stuck to me. if u want, please reply to it all ur thoughts good and bad, its those words full of truth that will help me become a better writer, thus giving u better fics since i cannot write to save my life.(idontknowwhatswrongwithmebutitskillingmeslowlyandwrackingmybodywithunnecesarypain) well, i am working on afew things, both projects for some odd reason that i just noticed start with the letter 'G'... so, im guessing, there must be something good with the letter, something pure... but then again, hese new fics are far from 'pure'. ah! yes, yes and no.... im not even going to say it... yes... no... no i wont kk then!(ohgodshelpme) i guess that means im through yea? KP's first attempt at this... blogging, because, i just wanna get closer to u guys... hey! something i just now noticed! my hand, left hand that presses chords on the guitar, has thinner skin than my right!... yea... er, take it as a KP fact XP

well, goodnight, i should get back to this stupid profile and studying for the finals. (bringonthefailedspannish!D<)

please sleep well :3

OH MY GODS!

so like! i feel i have FAILED u all somehow. D:

how long has it been? A month? Two months? THREE!? i dont remember... this should have never happened, but you see. life is a bitch and it came slapping me in the face at 120mph... so like, i was dazed, confused, hurt.... and very, very lost for a while. but, now i'm back. i have been depriving all of u oH BoY k!LL, mEntal SEX, and my new fic i see some like TriX. i didn't mean to. but yes, life happens. i would like to start writing again. lately i have just been Rping and stuff... but, i miss my fics. and i miss all YOU! hmmm, some good news that has happened....

i shall be moving up to a new year in august. (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!)

i FINALLY got my first tokidoki bag! (finally...)

forien (sp) exchange student is all taken care of and will be arriving  in a few weeks. (last three years, France, this year Spain, next year, Japan.... hopefully)

i (think) made friends.

LEAVING MILITARY SCHOOL AND GOING TO ART SCHOOL!!!!! GO KITTYPON GO! XXXXXDDDDDDDDDDDD (u wouldn't believe the hell i had to go through to get into that damn school! @_@)

my hairless rat has started to.... bite me. (is that good?)

OH!OH! i got a PSP last week and the game Crisis Core... beat Crisis Core in two days (i didn't meant to! i was trying to make it last at least two weeks! this always happens to me...) cool game!

hmmmm, thats all i can think of for now. hope to see u all very soon! i shall be talking to my manager... soon... i miss her.... so yeah! cant wait to start reading fanfics again too!

;3

From: KP

 

Chapt 3/?
pairings: MiyavixHyde
warnings: non, Meeves body is still getting it's revenge
comments: Hu, non, i am just writing whatever leaves my fingertips is the story for i have NOTHING planed like how i usually do.... i had something els to say, i think it was important, but i dont remember XP.

Chapt: 2/?
pairings: Miyavi, Hyde
Syn: Miyavi wakes
warnings: Uhh... Hmmm, Meevs body gets revenge
comments: kk i just watched SAW 3 and loved it but is a little shooken up and it's very late so yeah. AWESOME MOVIE XD